jadi foto model..

hari ini gw ama abenk jadi foto model.. haha boongan dink, tapi kami emg ada kegiatan foto2 untuk dokumentasi prewedding.. dan berhubung gw suka ama patung2 di museum taman prasasti (bekas kuburan belanda di Jl tanah abang I, dkt bgt dengan Kantor Walikota Jakarta Pusat) jadilah kita foto2 disana.. untungnya abenk suka juga jd gk pake argue hehe.. sebenernya ada rencana ke museum fatahillah, tapi krn gw ma abenk udah cape dan cukup puas ama lokasi taman prasasti jadi males aja mau pindah lokasi..

pic yg aku submit disini cuma dikit, termasuk beberapa shot favorit gw.. yang bagus tuh yang ada patung YESUS, yang kedua ada ANGEL (patungnya cantik banget) dan di pic ketiga itu ada pilarnya.. pas mood kan tinggal kejar2an sambil nyanyi di antara pilar hehe sekali2 jadi india boleh dunks.. ACA ACA ACAAAAEEE

tapi bener deh, pemotretan yang cuma sejam lebih itu rasanya cape bgt walopun menyenangkan krn ketemu abenk (doi baru dateng dari sorowako lgsg gw geret foto2 haha).. jadi sebelumnya qta jemput bang jeff di biro foto langsung ke museum. pas dateng udah ada semacam banner tentang fasilitas dan biaya penggunaan museum taman prasasti itu.. tadinya ada tulisan biaya untuk prewedding Rp350 rb, tapi berhubung gw kenal ama kepala museum jadi bisa dikorting dan gw cm bayar Rp100 rb aja.. itung2 biaya nitip barang dan make ruangan berAC untuk dandan dan ganti baju..

kebetulan suasana museum taman prasasti itu sepi (dasar orang jakarta pasti maunya ke mall instead of ke situs sejarah), jadi proses foto2nya gampang dan gk bnyk distorsi gambar.. kita keliling nyoba foto di berbagai lokasi yang ada barang2 menarik, mulai dari bangunan betawi samping pintu masuk, kereta KAPITAN JAS, depan makam Olivia Mariamne Raffles, (istri Gubernur Jenderal Hindia Belanda Thomas Stamford Raffles), patung angel, harpa, pastur, nisan2 orang yg gw gk kenal, tapi yang pasti sih yg ada JESUSnya yg jadi favorit gw..

sekelumit tentang museum taman prasasti

gw pernah liputan ke tempat ini beberapa kali, yang pertama waktu survey museum/kuburan (topik favorit gw) jaman gw msi dimentoring ama abah chaidar.. kedua waktu ada pertunjukan teater arak2an prosesi penguburan bangsawan belanda, pake dilarung di kali abdul muis baru dinaikin ke kereta kuda segala loo.. berikut2nya ya maen aja, ngajakin nyokap liat2 patung dan nisan belanda..

Museum Taman Prasasti, menurut penjaganya, dulu dikenal dengan nama Kebon Jahe Kober dan disebut sebagai makam modern tertua di Jakarta taon 1795. nah, tahun 1977, lahan itu dijadiin taman berisi prasasti ato nisan, sedangkan tulang belulang isi kuburan itu -katanya- udah dipindahin.. beberapa prasasti yang ada di taman itu antara laen Miss Riboet (tokoh sandiwara), Soe Hok Gie (tokoh mahasiswa), yang mayoritas sih ya nama2 belanda antara laen Dr. WF Stutterheim (ahli arkeologi), Dr. HF Roll (pendiri Stovia/cikal bakal FK-UI), JHR Kohler (tokoh Perang Aceh), Pieter Eberveld (orang belanda yg dihukum ala logo Levi's, yaitu badannya ditarik ama dua kuda ke arah yang berlawanan ampe kebelah hiiiiy).

sayangnya, kondisi taman prasasti itu gk terurus. tamannya kering, ada yg berumput ada yg gundul (jadi becek klo pas ujan), daun2 berguguran gk disapu, sampah bekas makanan ato minuman juga banyak, dan yg paling menyebalkan adalah adanya grafiti asal2an.. cuma bikin sakit mata yg ngeliatnya aja.. coba ya taman itu dikasi rumput jepang, nisannya dicuci/dibersihin dari grafiti pokonya lokasi itu dirawat yg bagus, pasti deh banyak yg mau dateng, klo gk belajar sejarah minimal liat2 prasasti.. klo sekarang kan males aja, udah bekas kuburan, kumuh, klo dah gitu mau nikmatin apanya coba? eh iya, gw lupa bilang ada rusa tutul disitu.. jinak dan gk takut ama pengunjung.. lupa nanya kenapa gk gabung di monas aja ya, kan emang lahan untuk si rusa tutul (axis axis) yang disediain pemda DKI Jakarta ya di monas itu..

mudah2an pejabat kepala museum yang berikut2nya lebih peduli dalam ngerawat museum taman prasasti.. dari internet aja bisa kita bandingin bahwa Kuburan Kebon Jahe itu lebih tua daripada Fort Canning Park (Singapura, 1926), Gore Hill Cemetery (Sydney, 1868), La Chaise Cemetery (Paris, 1803), Mount Auburn Cemetery (Cambridge, Massachusetts, 1831, yang diklaim sebagai taman makam modern pertama di dunia), dan Arlington National Cemetery (Washington D.C., 1864)..

..till death do us part

blue

suddenly i had this urge to commit suicide, again.. i dont know why but i've always feel like this when i get upset.. last time i felt this way was a long time ago, merely about 2,5 yrs ago when i was unemployed, boyfriendless and completely useless for my parents, my community as well as for the country.
last fridaynite, about 20.30 or more, i've just entered the house and as usual i went to master bedroom to greet my parents but what did i get? a nasty comment that felt like a sharp slap on my face. they accusing me for wandering around and abandoned their calls to my cellphone. i answered them that i got on fridaynite traffic and i did called them back soon as i saw their missed calls. it was just a 6 minutes after their last call, for chrissake.. but they didnt answer my calls to their room number, as well as my brother when i called his cell to ask why did they call me.. then i had to hear their on and on and on complaining about me that a girl should be home at 8 oclock.
hare gene cewe dijakarta msh diwajibin pulang jam 8 malem? banten bgt..
so, i stormed out the room and lock my self in mine until saturday afternoon.. i was hungry and had 2 small mangoes for my brunch.. i even shared it with sasq and odan, actually i was only being polite.. then i went to my room again and blind my eyes with book.. i dozed off and wake up at 1830 and started to feel terribly hungry.. so i went downstairs and fixed my self a bowl of instant beehun with soto flavour topped with egg.. it was delicious and comforting my tummy.. i was eyeing my parents since i cannot avoid them in the house but i managed to completely unaware about them..
and then, my fiance called my cell, i thought he was going to comfort me but our chit chat turn sour and later on we hung up on each other.. damn!! i am unworthy person whose cruelly wasting other's time with me.. i mean, my parents hate me, my boyfriend hate me and so the world.. and it struck me suddenly, i don't belong in this world..
and this time, in this strange hour (it's 4.30 am) im lying on my bed, tired of heavy book reading, this afternoon i started and try to finish haruki murakami's norwegian wood.. im surprised that the book mentions lots of death, so far i read, there are 3 suicides dan 2 death of sickness.. i dig on the 3 suicides, kizuki died on poisoning himself wih CO from his car, naoko's sister died with hanging herself to death, and hatsumi died after cut her wrists..
i fancy hatsumi's way, and i thought that would be adaptable for me since my car is far from my room, and my room don't have any 'palang' to tie a rope to hang myself.. but again i need a razor to cut my wrist and now i have no idea where did i keep my latest paper cutter? i even arranged the waste bucket next to my bed so the blood drippings wont go anywhere on the floor.. i imagine that on usual sunday my parents usually banged on my door to wake me up to go to church with them.. but on this very special day, i assumed they wont be bother to do so.. when on the other hand i might be death already, right? and then i didnt come to work on monday morning, didnt even show up to eat or drink all day long and they sent my litlle bro odan to check me out from the window and
he called and called my name and knocking on the glass window, but i lay still.. panic he tried to call my cell and since i wasnt able to answered it, he went down empty handed.. later on they went to my room and trying to break in and failed.. then they tried the last try from the window and starring in horror as i lay peacefully in my green cottoned bed and red polcadot blanket with my right wrist above the wastebucket full of blood..
i think that would be a great scenery, what do u think? i'm gonna meet my grandma (it's almost a year after she died) and i'll have the same dead date on different month.. mine in november and hers in december.. i remember how nana always comfort me and make me feel like the most precious thing in the world.. she never nagged on me, she was full of wisdom and she had this special way to share it with me.. oh nana, i can't wait to join u, i can't stand living here anymore..

but then i realise, if i die today, i'll look like a loser which can't stand for her ex boyf wedding.. have i told u this saturday is his wedding? haha i dont think i wanna hear people says 'oooh, poor glenda couldnt bear that her ex getting married..' i didnt even attend his wedding (i want to but okto didnt interest so we didnt go) so its almost believable if people think that i died of brokenhearted.. haha not a chance, everyone..

so i better skip today and think another day that would be more convenient to be my death day..
i know that i sound selfish, prone to put my interest and ego above all.. but hey, since i'm a solitary soul, it seems that nobody will miss me or think about me if i died..
i've just realise that i dont have anyone to back me up, not a single soul..
am i that
hard to live with?

communicator yg gk komunikatif..

sedih lagi deh..
hari ini liputan udah cape2, ngirim berita pake N9300 kok susye banget.. padahal alat itu kan diadakan utk mempermudah pengiriman berita. kenapa dua bulan belakangan ini sering kejadian gini ya? sering kejadian, gw bikin brita pendahuluan jam 08.00 (selain agenda juga utk nambah produksi berita gw dan spy redaktur gk cengo) tapi abs itu redaktur nelp pas jam 11 or 12 nanya agenda lptn gw hr ini.
lah, dari tadi tuh gw spent Rp35 per kilobytes teh ngapain? jelas jelas seluruh kode kategori, alamat email dan embel2nya telah terpenuhi...

seriiiiing, banget kejadian berita gk sampe meja sunting..
dulu pas awal2 pake N9300 utk krm brita dr lapangan, pernah gw kelar liputan dan pas ngecek VSAT ternyata berita gw yg tersiar cm satu while gw seharian itu krm tiga. ya udah, gw kirim lagi lah pake sent items, 5 minutes later masih gk ada di jejak berita.. bingung deh gw.. terpaksa nanya ke mas windu (bos IT) dan gw dapet penjelasan yg bener2 bikin gw memaki dlm hati "ANJRITTT". so, critanya siang itu sistem kantor abis drop, jadi entah gimana mail server utk nerima berita (berita@antara.co.id) itu ikutan drop dan gk lgsg forwar brita2 ke meja sunting. sore itu lebih dari 51 berita (termasuk 2 brita gw) yg "nyangkut" di mail server yg ternyata gk dipantau krn awaknya lg asik maen game dan friendster (di desk laen di banned, giliran mereka free. sebel banget deh!!!!). so gw langsung ke meja dan ngasi tau redaktur2 dan pewarta laen (yg jg jd korban) bahwa sistem sudah pulih kembali dan brita sudah pasti akan sampe.belakangan pernah ada beberapa kali kejadian gtu jg. rupanya emang anak2 IT itu pada males mantau mail server jd sering ada yg nyangkut.

NAAAAH, sekarang, dengan sistem kompartemen, rupanya kakom (Kepala Kompartemen yaitu A024) jd sering mantau. dia ini yg sering nilpun2 nanya agenda or hasil berita. kdg2 gw naik pitam (bukan ke dia) pas jelas2 gw dah ngirim kok dia masih nanya? gw lgsg tau, biang keladinya si berita@antara.co.id yg dengan zalim menelan berita gw tnp meneruskan ke meja sunting redaktur.

hmmm, tapi kakom gw jg pernah melontarkan sesuatu yg rada menyinggung gw, ini terkait keluhan gw yg gw sampein ke dia via surat manual (kebetulan doi pas gk dikantor jd gw tinggalin post-it), dalam surat itu gw bilang berita gw seminggu (pekan lalu) ilang bisa tiga berita, ada yg berita pendahuluan, ada yg berita biasa (tanpa cantelan harian).. respon dia pas ketemu gw, "mungkin kamu yg salah kategori". huuuuh, gk bisa gw tahan emosi gw (sebel denger itu) lgsg gw tukas aja, "saya pake N9300 bukan baru tiga hari mas. udah dari januari it means udah punya template."
abis itu gw udah gk mau keluh kesah lg soal berita gk sampe. bodo amat, yg penting gw kirim brita dan ada copycarbonnya di email pribadi gw -just in case ada pertanyaan ato penyelidikan lbh lanjut soal berita2 gw-.

tapi, nyuekin brita sendiri jg gk mungkin gw lakuin rupanya...
seperti hari ini, gw dah kirim brita pledoi pribadi suyitno, surat status ali mazi dan omay minta SKP3 itu dari sore sebelum pukul 16.30. tapi ternyata pukul 18.40 kakom kirim sms nyuruh gw minta brita status ali mazi, sbg tindak lanjut brita soal presiden nagih surat itu ke jaksa agung. gw bilang, sudah gw bikin dan kirim britanya. abis itu dia gk ada respon.
dan insting gw ngerasa ada yg gk beres jd pas sampe rmh cm cuci muka dan ngemil tempe gw cabut ke warnet, rupanya emang bener, brita yg sampe cuma pledoi si landung doang, dua lainnya gk sampe. trus gw pikir, email brita gw ter corrupt di berita@antara.co.id jd gw kirim lagi, tapi lima menit kemudian gk muncul di jejak berita dan terpaksa gw kirim scr manual, via ias antara.
step2nya yaitu buka email gw yg di antara, buka email copycarbon dan copypaste ke ias... abis itu baru deh, muncul di jejak berita, sembari ngu berita di proses gw bikin satu brita soal adnan buyung.. kelar bikin adnan, gw ngecek jejak brita gw, rupanya gk disentuh siapapun... gw lgsg nyureng, kebayang dikntor gk ada redaktur kompartemen hukum.. kampreeet, jangan make sistem kompartemen dong klo gk bisa jamin bakal ada sdm yg ready anytime di meja sunting.. terpaksa gw telp kantor, yg angka si panca (P008, susdape angkatan gw, temen smp gw di bandung thea) dia blg ada redaktur pak zuheri (Z002, bidang kesra) so gw titipin pesen supaya beliau mau berbaik hati mengedit dan melepas berita gw..

gk sampe 15 menit kemudian, berentetan deh tiga berita gw (jadi total hari ini empat, sekadar menuhin kuota aja) muncul di VSAT yg bs gw liat via ias.. trimakasih pak!!! (he's a kind man, seneng sempet ngerasain di mentorin beliau)

sedikit kecurigaan soal berita nyangkut/ilang di berita@antara.co.id, gw sempet curiga ada orang IT yg gk suka ma gw dan ngilangin berita gw spy gk masuk meja sunting. pikiran ini muncul pas gw tanya pewarta2 lain yg pake N9300, ternyata gk pernah ada yg seapes gw..
mungkinkah???

eh iya, selain berita yg "ilang" ada lg yang bikin panik, yaitu koneksi gprs yg suka gk bisa diandalkan.
klo abis liputan yg gede, macem vonis brigjen ismoko kmrn, gw panik berat. udh bikin brita flash 3 paragraf ternyata gk bisa konek gprsnya.. lambang koneksinya cuma muter2 kya gasing rusak hehe abs itu ya dengan cemas2 bahagia gw nelp kntr pas yg angkat pak johny tarigan (redaktur hukum) yang asik deh dan dia bersedia nerima brita singkat gw. klo gitu mah aman, tapi klo brita yg panjang mungkin laen lagi critanya kali yaaa? hehe

dua hal itu sering memaksa gw utk ke warnet -seperti hari ini-.. gw yg hrsnya udah pake piyama eeeh msh ketak ketuk keyboard.. udah ah, curhatnya udah kepanjangan.. gw mau pulang sambil nelp si abenk.. GOSH, how i miss him!!